Starting Again...Again

About 4 years ago, I joined Jenny Craig. I was amazed at how simple the program was to follow. The food was yummy. The weight came off. I was getting SO CLOSE to my goal weight! I could almost see it! I failed with only about 12 pounds to go.

So, what happened? Lots of things. Life. Love. Laziness.

Yesterday, I decided NO MORE! I can't live like this anymore. And the signs were everywhere. Emails. Postcards in the mail. Television commercials. A frozen muffin falling on my mom's foot. All right, I get it. I'll go back.

So today, I did. My mom and I both. We called Jenny. We weighed in. We got our week's worth of yummy food. Some of it, I missed very much. Beef Chow Mein, you and I have a lunch date. Not only today, but three other days this week! Mac and Cheese, you will be mine...several times this week. Lemon Cake? I will have my way with you! Cookies 'N Cream Cheesecake? Get in my tummy!!

I can't wait to eat all this delicious food again! I've missed the flavor. I've missed the convenience. I've missed the simplicity. I've missed losing the 2-4 pounds each week.

I will miss these things NO MORE! It's my time, and I WILL DO IT THIS TIME! Life, love, and laziness? You will NOT defeat me this time around!!

A Fresh New Start

Many things in my life are changing. I decided that my blog needed a change, too.

This year is going to be a year of gain. Gaining strength, both mentally and physically, gaining a healthy lifestyle, gaining organization in my home.

I'm starting out the year with a new outlook on life. So I'm starting out the new blog with the lyrics to a song that makes me feel strong every time I hear it.

I'm Not Going Down

I WOKE UP TODAY WITH A HEADACHE
MORE BILLS TO PAY THAN A CORPORATION
HEY, WHEN WILL IT END
MY MIRROR SAYS I COULD USE A BREAK
AN EASY DAY, SOME APPRECIATION
HEY HOW ‘BOUT A FRIEND
WHEN DAYS LIKE THESE START TO FALL IN ON ME
I GOTTA FACE MY REFLECTION AND SAY...HEY

BEEN BURNED BY THE FIRE
BEEN STUCK UNDER WATER
STRUNG UP ON A WIRE AND STILL THE WORLD GOES AROUND
BEEN TOSSED LIKE A FREE THROW
KNOCKED OUT WHEN THE WIND BLOWS
PULL THE CURTAIN ON THE HURTIN’
‘CAUSE I’M NOT GOING DOWN
(I’M NOT GOING DOWN NO NO)

INSIDE OF ME IS THE ONLY
HIGHWAY THAT LEADS TO A TRUE FREEDOM
HOLDING OUT IT’S HAND
I CLOSE MY EYES AND IT’S ALL RIGHT
THE SUN WILL SHINE ON A NEW HORIZON
JUST AROUND THE BEND
DAYS LIKE THESE BRING OUT THE STRENGTH IN ME
SO I CAN FACE MY REFLECTION AND SAY...

BEEN BURNED BY THE FIRE
BEEN STUCK UNDER WATER
STRUNG UP ON A WIRE AND STILL THE WORLD GOES AROUND
BEEN TOSSED LIKE A FREE THROW
KNOCKED OUT WHEN THE WIND BLOWS
PULL THE CURTAIN ON THE HURTIN’
‘CAUSE I’M NOT GOING DOWN

I STILL GET DIZZY AND FRANTIC, LONELY AND PANICED
BUT NEXT TIME I WON’T LET IT BEAT ME, NO
I CAN SEE CLEARLY, I KNOW WHO I AM
AND THAT’S HOW I KNOW I’VE BEGUN LIVING

BEEN BURNED BY THE FIRE
BEEN STUCK UNDER WATER
STRUNG UP ON A WIRE AND STILL THE WORLD GOES AROUND
BEEN TOSSED LIKE A FREE THROW
KNOCKED OUT WHEN THE WIND BLOWS
PULL THE CURTAIN ON THE HURTIN’
‘CAUSE I’M NOT GOING DOWN

I'm not afraid of change. In fact, I love change! I'm not afraid to be alone. I'm not afraid to finally be who I'm supposed to be!